I dunnoe what to do wif life rite nw...

Nothing seems to make sense..

I'd like a map to plot my life but the map I have is outdated..

Life is totally tipsy...

Family,academics,love life,friends...

Everything.

I wish at least one thing was secure in my life rite nw...

At times i wish it was us.

But sumtimes i tink i dream too much.

Dreams never really do become reality,or even if they do,never turn out like how u want them to.

Whatever i had to let go,i did.

I left u guys cos I cudnt live dat way anymore...cudnt keep turning back to look if trouble had found me..

hiding the bruises,the scars..

Emotionally and physically,i'm bruised.Psychologically...i'm gone...

I've drifted,havent i?

I let go wen u all thot i'd hold on...

I'm not dat person anymore.

Remember dat nite?

The knife cuts hurt but i pretended it didnt.

And wen u dared me to stab myself in the stomach,i wud have...I didnt tho..

U guys were my world...everyting in my life revolved more or less around you guys...

but ppl grow up..i did...i left wen i had to..it wud have killed me to stay on

And Liza...

You were wonderful at first...no doubt..but all good things come to an end..

You betrayed  my trust...I can never forget that...Forgiven,but i've not forgotten.

Nadia...wow...my anger towards you and my hatred towards what u did to me...i can't begin to describe...

i didnt expect it to be like that..i didnt expect u to backstab me like that...

we had it...we almost made it...we almost lived thru MI together...

u know whats the best part?

ppl will talk about us for years to come...wondering wat became of us...

sorta like bonnie and clyde huh?

i'll say this tho..while u were in my life,i was proud to call u my girl...

i loved u without limits...without restraints..without a care...

thanks for having been in my life even if it was only for 3 years.

But now...that chapter of my life is over...

a new one is waiting...i just wish i knew what's around the corner...

to u...i love you...with all my heart,i do...

but sumtimes i wonder if we're rite for each other...if i'm rite for you...

the last ting i wanna do is hurt u...

all i wanna do is hold u close and love u as much as i'm capable.

sometimes i wish u'd accept me into ur heart..at other times,i'm glad u havent cos dat means i'm not truly responsible for ur heart...

yet...sumtimes i get this feeling that we are...watever u wanna call it...just not in status...

does status really matter?

i used to tink so...

now...i dun tink its important much cos i already love u too deeply to care about whether or not the status is there..

love me or leave me,someone once said...

heh...

i tot those were empty words...

now...i dun want u to leave...but if u do..i guess its cos u found someone better who cud love u n care for u in ways dat i cudnt...wen that happens...i'll leave quietly..but i'll always be there for you when u need me...thats my promise to you...not that you'll ever know...